Depression

This quote easily describes what happened during past bouts of depression.  I save these quotes to remind me, when I am well, that if I don’t take responsibility for my mental health, my brain could do this again and I need to keep vigilant about my health, even when I don’t feel like it.

sadness

And this quote to remind me that life doesn’t have to be so heavy all the time.

grouchyweed

See how quiet it is?

roadtrip

I am sold.  Hook, line and sinker.

I believe that practicing mindfulness is beneficial to both my physical and mental health.  I know this will sound like a sorry excuse; but I also believe that a quiet state of mind is hard to achieve when your thoughts run you ragged from mental illness.  Ragged to the point you can’t even catch a single thought.  Not a pity party, just the facts.

Mindfulness has been a part of my life for a couple of years now, so the excuse is lazy, because I know that mindfulness helps bring that MOFO of a runaway brain back to centre, even if only for a short time.  I go through spurts where I remember more often and times when I manage to do it daily and more.  The more I practice mindfulness the easier it becomes.  Just have to do it.  More.  Frequently. Always.  Lots.

I am doing a road trip for the month of August and I have a goal that I am hoping will help me achieve what I want for the next part of my life.  I want to boost my use of mindfulness skills and commit myself to frequent, daily moments, minutes, of mindful practice however much I can achieve, as long as it’s often.  I believe that if I can train my brain and make Mindfulness one of the biggest parts of how I look after my health, that I will see results.

I have learned to command my thoughts to be still; my lips to have a softer slower sound, and I have successfully encouraged my steps to be purposefully slow and sure, and it always makes me feel better, even for only a short time.  It is a difficult habit to acquire and I would be happy if I achieve success fifty percent of my attempts at having a quiet head.

My hope, and gift to myself, is that Mindfulness becomes an automatic setting in my brain rather than a daily go-to.

Road trip!

Wish me luck, this should be a (bitter)sweet journey.

Im Back

marilyn monroe

Just a quick note to my best bud before I get started.

You fucking make me laugh like ten times a day. For all the things you think you should feel guilty for in life … I swear your humour has made up for it in the last week.

An involuntary smile saves lives.

Truth.